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Nov. 8th, 2010

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Nathan got a job.

And he starts today. Making pretty good money. And I am happy. And so is he.

Apr. 28th, 2010


I am at a point now where I am totally incapable of being happy for other people. Almost ever. And I feel bad about it, and I wish I could change it, but I can’t. I am entering month…17 of Nathan’s unemployment*, being constantly unsure of what tomorrow will bring or where I will live or anything and I am sad. I am stressed. I am losing my hair. For real. I am not sleeping very much at all. I ache all over all the time. I am so tired.

I am bitter, and I get angry when good things happen to you. It’s really pathetic, but it’s true. I am so bitter that I get angry when good things happen to you. That is who I am right now. I don’t like me. Other people seem to be slowing walking away as well and I don’t blame them.

*I am aware it is also happening to him, and I deal with that on the daily. I am taking 5 minutes to talk about just me. OK? OK.

Jul. 6th, 2009

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I am having ISSUES with my Girls Aloud boxed set.
The videos? MISSING.
I am trying not to set something on fire I am so PISSED.

Jun. 1st, 2009

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I'm am in fact, not dead. So...that's good news I guess.
That's about all the good news I have though.
My husband is hitting month six of unemployment. So.
Yeah. I'm not dead.

Mar. 20th, 2009

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And we have a baby.

I don't have the details yet BECAUSE I WASN'T THERE, but from what I gather she stopped at the Drs office on a lark, and someone broke her water for her.


Mar. 17th, 2009

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She called all day yesterday. The nurses weren't answering the phone.

Mar. 16th, 2009

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When my sister had her first baby, Seth, he was really, really big. The Dr. apologized for not noticing. There was a lot of damage.

So for Zane, she found a Dr who would induce early if he was too big. And he was, and the Dr did, and it was smooth and I was there and it was beautiful and one of the top 3 experiences of my entire life.

So when she got pregnant with Quinn, she went to a Dr (3rd baby, 3rd city) and said “I have big babies, I need an early induction, if you can’t get on board with that, let me know and I’ll find another Dr.” And the Dr said “Oh no, I can, big babies are dangerous for both mother and child”

ACES. We have a Dr.

So she was scheduled for last Wednesday. I take off work and fly down. Her husband takes off work. Tuesday they tell her to call at 5:30 AM Wednesday AM, because it looks like they might be full.

Um, what? We have an appointment. We have a medical need.

So we call at 5:30 AM. They are full. Call back at 7.

Keep in mind that she is pregnant, and CAN’T EAT while she waits.

Late in the afternoon we are told call Thursday.

Thursday goes just like Wednesday.


Only FRIDAY they tell her that not only can they not see her today, 3 days after she was scheduled, but they don’t do inductions on the weekend AND her Dr is out of town next week ON VACATION, so she is rescheduled for the 24th. A day after her natural due date.


A. We were going to induce for the safety of the child and mother, but now that you have to GO ON VACATION, it’s not necessary? How does that makes sense to you Dr.? Why can’t you have a pal do it? Are there no other Drs in Houston?
B. I have a job I have to go back to, AND I have already spent what I can’t REALLY afford on plane fare.
C. I am not having children, so this was pretttttty much my last opportunity at experiencing the miracle of childbirth, and I missed it. I am not sure I know any one else who would allow me to be in the room for that.
D. MY SISTER IS MISERABLE. The baby is huge, she thinks Quinn has slowed down and is not moving as much which is BAD.
E. She doesn’t have an appointment this week for Dr visit, like she SHOULD, because the Dr. IS ON VACATION.
F. I’m livid.

The end.

Feb. 23rd, 2009

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My mom's dog stole Bitty's bag of Pupperoni treats and took them under a bed and ate them all when we were home for Christmas. She sent him a package with a bag of Greenies and Pupperonis with this note last week.

Dear Bitty

Feb. 18th, 2009

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Should I

a. do my hair just like it is now
b. go a little more copper/natural
c. go back to dark brown

I feel like the red looks prettier in photos than it does in real life.
IDK, IDK. What do you think?

Dark Brown:


Jan. 31st, 2009

Cindee was like “tell us about it!” and I’m like “OK!”

So about 2 and a half weeks ago I got an e-mail that they needed a secretary at First Baptist Dallas. And normally I would have been very…you know…not for me thanks. But I’ve been jobless since November 3rd and Nate has been jobless since early December and well…I was desperate. So I submitted my resume. And they called. And I interviewed a couple times.

At first, I thought it might be OK. But then the guy asked some questions I was less than comfortable with (Like why we decided not to have kids) and he prefaced them by saying “I’m going to ask you a personal question and you don’t have to answer” but the thing is, it’s ILLEGAL to ask me that sir. And also VERY RUDE.

Anyway. Also he asked me if I facebooked and then I was like nervous someone would put up a picture of me having like a beer at a bar and I lose my job? You know? Or what if Erin puts up a pic of us dancing? And you know how Baptists are? So I was really uncomfortable with the idea of working there and whatnot. So.

Wednesday I got a call from a recruiter who had pulled my resume off like career builder or something. She wanted to see me Thursday at 2 PM. And I was supposed to go to FBC on Thursday AM to meet HR. They said they would “call me first thing in the AM. But at like 10 AM they still had not called. So I called them and said you know “I was under the impression that we were going to meet this AM, and I have appointments this afternoon so if we are going to meet today it needs to be really soon” and they had to call me back. And they said OK, let’s just meet Monday AM. And we ARE going to offer you the job, for sure.So OK. So I go to the recruiter. And seriously? She is a JERK. She tells me what to wear, what to say, what not to say…she makes me feel like I am a moron, and I am so confused as to why she even called if she doesn’t want to to go down there and interview as myself. I left there feeling horrid.

I had an interview with the actual company Friday at 1 PM. I really really liked the girl I would be supporting. She’s the Director of Operations and I have supported someone in that position elsewhere. Also she is taking Maternity leave soonish, and she needs someone to replace her when she goes and she wants it to be her assistant. So I really get a good feeling about this job, and it is like 15 minutes from my house TOPS. And it sounds great, and I really want it. So naturally I leave there and go out to my car and cry. Lol.

But less than an hour later the agency called and said she hired me and I start Monday. It’s temp to hire for a few weeks because she has been burned a couple times and she’s nervous, but I really think I can be what she needs. I’m a LITTLE nervous my Excel skills will not be up to her standard (I made a 97% on the freaking test but you know, whatever). PLUS, I can be myself. So.

Yeah. That’s what’s up.

Nathan still needs a job. So don’t stop thinking about us just yet,

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